enfinblue's Bluey (credit to Fifi for the nickname!) Diaryland Diary

"I am seeking, I am striving, I am in it with all my heart." -Vinc3nt V@n Gogh

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I don't know.

I just wrote a long entry about how jealous I am of my brother who lives in Sweden, but that should go in a private journal. You do not. need. to read. that. I guess it's just that I'm struggling with that question of whether I've done all of the "right" things throughout my life, only to deny my true self. And that approval I was doing it all for will never. come. She will never give it to me. And my dad is not here for me to ask him if I can do something different. Could I have been something different? Would someone have supported me? Would someone have believed in me? I don't know.

9:05 a.m. - 2010-04-11

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