enfinblue's Bluey (credit to Fifi for the nickname!) Diaryland Diary

"I am seeking, I am striving, I am in it with all my heart." -Vinc3nt V@n Gogh

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Don't count me out yet.

Well, I'm no paragon of mental health or perfect social adjustment, but today I feel pretty good.

I think I'm getting better at shutting off the ruminating. Last night on the sofa I started knitting and gave myself one instruction: don't dig down.

Sooner or later, I AM going to have to think about the fact that I have an unfulfilling career, albeit a good one. And I keep on talking about patience, but maybe that's avoidance. Still, I remembered recently that not everything is possible. It's difficult to hear that, but sometimes our decisions are made for us. Sometimes that's a function of student debt. Sometimes that's a function of family responsibilities. Sometimes that's a function of birth and family.

So you work with what you have. We can't all live and work as artists or restorers in Florence! It's a nice idea, but in practise making the money and finding the contacts to live reasonably like that are a really tall order.

Anyhow. Will keep on thinking. I'm sure I haven't exhausted all possibilities.

Had a plan to get to work early-ish these days, so will take off, eh.

XO

8:44 a.m. - 2009-11-10

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