enfinblue's Bluey (credit to Fifi for the nickname!) Diaryland Diary

"I am seeking, I am striving, I am in it with all my heart." -Vinc3nt V@n Gogh

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Tired, tired eyes...and a slightly runny nose.

So he cried and said that I am such a wonderful person.

This actually takes the sting out of him breaking up with me, particularly now that I realize that I am too good for him.

It didn't hurt that my super nice friends told me today that they hadn't wanted to say anything but that they hadn't liked him. I mean, they said they hadn't disliked him. They met him once. The guy said he'd found him a bit shallow; the girl said that she just hadn't liked him, didn't feel a natural fit.

And the best part is that I could tell by their faces that they weren't making it up!

I feel much better now.

I don't know. I don't think that these things are precisely why I feel better now. I worked hard at work today, which always improves my sense of self-worth and my mood.

I'm also simply wrapping my head around not having him in my life. Not having him in my life--and I know that teranika kindly said this first! :)--means that I can eventually have someone in my life who brings a thousand times more happiness to it. It seems a simple lesson but so difficult to learn sometimes, even though it shouldn't be so.

I'm weary. I didn't sleep very well last night. I also feel as though I am coming down with a cold. I grocery shopped and will make a healthy, balanced meal for a change.

I don't have much more to add today, as on coming home I feel a little bit less buoyant than I did today at work. Things are on an upswing though, I think. I really don't need a guy who doesn't care much for me.

7:55 p.m. - 2007-02-19

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