enfinblue's Bluey (credit to Fifi for the nickname!) Diaryland Diary

"I am seeking, I am striving, I am in it with all my heart." -Vinc3nt V@n Gogh

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He was not on the mall.

Unfortunately, I'm going through a veritable midnight of the soul right now. All day I've been stressed about going to this interview.

I feel as though I have to prove something to SOMEONE (I don't know who). I don't really want to go to this interview.

I feel like I did when I was a teenager and in my twenties and never happy: Why couldn't I have been born blissful and dumb.

Choices are difficult. Having no choices is more difficult, if you know better, I suppose. As in, I can't go back now, after a life of choices. I'd be miserable if it stopped, just as I'm miserable as it continues.

Breathe.

3:13 p.m. - 2009-08-13

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