enfinblue's Diaryland
Diary
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2008-12-01 - It's a simple thing: the Mondays do me in. 2008-12-01 - Yeah. I can't even think of a title. 2008-12-01 - Obstacle course 2008-11-30 - Brava! 2008-11-30 - SNOW! and LEMONS! 2008-11-30 - I feel marvelously young and alive - a feeling I've been waiting for for eight years. 2008-11-29 - Oh la la la la la la 2008-11-29 - Wanker up, wanker down 2008-11-28 - The economy and I are in about the same state. 2008-11-27 - Hope your days were as pleasant! 2008-11-27 - The allurements of freedom 2008-11-26 - What goes up must come down. 2008-11-25 - Pure joy and gratitude 2008-11-25 - Scrooge a.m. 2008-11-24 - Gentilissima! 2008-11-24 - OK. Am going to try not to be negative about work. 2008-11-23 - C and his bright ideas 2008-11-23 - Short crow and pics 2008-11-23 - I've got my love to keep me warm. 2008-11-23 - WEIRD. AND I MEAN WEIRD. Oh god how I love funny, earthy people. 2008-11-22 - I suppose it's good that I know how to spell the country's name now. 2008-11-22 - Sometimes, you can't do it on your own. 2008-11-21 - That's one mighty skeleton. 2008-11-21 - I'm so grumpy and angry at the boredom of my life and the fact that I have to tolerate the vulgarity of the senior economist. But the light has appeared in the tunnel! 2008-11-20 - Thanks thanks thanks 2008-11-20 - Not a newsflash: Economics depresses me. 2008-11-20 - M M M M M 2008-11-19 - THings that make you go...mmm 2008-11-18 - Milestones 2008-11-18 - ACK LATE 2008-11-17 - Why must days be so brief?? 2008-11-16 - Buona notte. 2008-11-16 - Just some mindless rambling 2008-11-15 - Nice Saturday 2008-11-15 - Oh la la 2008-11-14 - Les murs 2008-11-14 - supporter 2008-11-14 - Périmé 2008-11-13 - To EB on her 38 and a half (th) birthday. 2008-11-12 - Salute 2008-11-12 - Another day of one hundred fifty... 2008-11-11 - Who playeth tango music! 2008-11-11 - Just a quickie video (well, maybe two)... 2008-11-11 - I can only think of trivialities today, in spite of the day. 2008-11-10 - I don't know. 2008-11-10 - Really not much to tell. 2008-11-10 - A bit tired of the lack of empathy in the world 2008-11-09 - More Canadian history than you ever wnted to know. 2008-11-09 - Cette semaine, l'espoir a une visage inédit... 2008-11-09 - Terrific article... 2008-11-08 - - 2008-11-07 - Good will 2008-11-07 - getting busy. 2008-11-07 - So tired. Disappointed in myself. 2008-11-06 - not far from the tree 2008-11-06 - Matchy match match 2008-11-06 - Thanks for the advice and good wishes! I'll sort it all out. 2008-11-06 - quick note 2008-11-06 - - 2008-11-05 - Sigh. Long day. 2008-11-05 - Will. 2008-11-04 - Sweet dreams and a wonderful moment in time for a great many people. 2008-11-03 - Thank god for cheese. I mean that. 2008-11-02 - C-meister clip 2008-11-02 - Days 2008-11-02 - Yes, I'm here! 2008-10-20 - Bait shop closed 2008-10-19 - Stuck. 2008-10-19 - The real diagnosis 2008-10-18 - The sun shines, and the wind rises. 2008-10-18 - Kidding, really. 2008-10-18 - You are so shiny and sexy! 2008-10-17 - Hmmm.. 2008-10-17 - What would they do without me? 2008-10-16 - I'm not going to carry other people's baggage anymore. 2008-10-15 - I am completely done. Roasted. But I can't forget the squash in the oven! 2008-10-15 - Very tired today. Probably need to reread some of my \"lessons.\" I kind of have that feeling of \"Things are going well; what is going to start going wrong?\" 2008-10-15 - OopS! J'ai oublie mes devoirs (sorry for the missing accent..) 2008-10-14 - Cheers and beers 2008-10-13 - The \"big\" 100. 2008-10-13 - Before the \"big\" 100 2008-10-13 - The little engine that could. 2008-10-13 - All before coffee. The first few seconds of waking are always interesting. 2008-10-12 - Boxes and circles 2008-10-12 - Sorting through the negative thoughts that are creating and reinforcing behaviour 2008-10-11 - The weather is lovely and typical in my neck of the woods today. 2008-10-11 - The weather is lovely and typical in my neck of the woods today. 2008-10-11 - And where should I ask them to send me? Where is it cool without being too cool? :) 2008-10-11 - Tout va bien. 2008-10-09 - C dinner 2008-10-09 - Thought 2008-10-08 - Fiesole I 2008-10-08 - Lovely. Lovely. Lovely. 2008-10-07 - I see my fingers curving and I want them to straighten out. 2008-10-07 - Thanks for the boost of energy that will get me through this day. 2008-10-07 - It's all work. 2008-10-06 - I wish I could stay home tomorrow 2008-10-06 - I hope I get another day like that. 2008-10-05 - I've THUNK myself into a muddle and a migraine. :( Oops 2008-10-05 - I'm done now. 2008-10-05 - Rolling thoughts before the brain gets turned OFF. 2008-10-05 - Quiet and certainty now. 2008-10-04 - Find a way to love what you have, not have what you love. At least for now. 2008-10-04 - I don't even really know if I could live in Italy. I think that my plan of an apartment in Florence is the best one. And then I'd have to work out a way to take longer holidays. Hmmm... 2008-10-04 - More musing. No excuses and no apologies. 2008-10-04 - What are you going to do? 2008-10-03 - SOOOOOO TIIIIIIIIIIIIIRRREEED 2008-10-03 - Mood killer! That Dan! 2008-10-02 - Achey breaky shaky steady. 2008-10-02 - Had to work some things out in my head, pay some bills, make a plan. 2008-10-01 - Plans plans plans are the way 2008-09-30 - You can stay the night. 2008-09-30 - Wish and love are not the same thing. To me you're just a tourist. 2008-09-30 - Time for coffee and a jolt of positive attitude. 2008-09-29 - Heartsick is all it feels like. 2008-09-28 - Italia winds down, and I move forward into my new life. I am finally feeling 100% healthy. What a shame that it is the last day! 2008-09-27 - Flights of fancy and earthly delight. 2008-09-26 - A bit of peace, baci baci baci, and heaps of inspiration 2008-09-26 - Rushed rushed rushed and you CANNOT rush LA DOLCE V!TA 2008-09-25 - I really do completely underrate the value of my health 2008-09-24 - QUITE the day. Why are Italian men so very hottttt? 2008-09-24 - Still sick. Ah well! 2008-09-23 - A little bit flat, but not bad at all. 2008-09-22 - Thinking and not thinking 2008-09-21 - Cough cough cough. But I'm different. I really am! 2008-09-21 - Super S! 2008-09-20 - The date that seems likely to be an anti-climax 2008-09-19 - Ze plot thickens 2008-09-19 - fun, fun, if a little bit of rain 2008-09-18 - Bella, bella, bella Italia 2008-09-18 - A turn in the weather. 2008-09-18 - Take care and be well. 2008-09-18 - Loneliness is a tenacious bastard 2008-09-18 - Not an ending. A beginning 2008-09-18 - Really not a day I'm proud of. I can't stop crying. The tears are actually rolling down my cheeks at the computer. 2008-09-17 - Lights dancing on the Arno; river mostly looked like a swamp to me tonight. 2008-09-17 - dinner with a friend 2008-09-17 - It is going to be difficult to go home. :) 2008-09-17 - No crema solare required this time. :) 2008-09-17 - Please excuse this entry - don't read too much into it. Working out some thoughts. Feel free to comment though. :) 2008-09-16 - Bella bella bella bello 2008-09-16 - Going to the Porta Rossa 2008-09-15 - So how do you spell sour grapes? :) 2008-09-15 - Wonderful art class. 2008-09-15 - Good morning FIRENZE! 2008-09-14 - Sort of crazy, running-off-at-the-mouth notes! I'm still sleepy! 2008-09-13 - And I won't deflower any young men - promise. :) 2008-09-12 - The clock really is ticking... 2008-09-11 - (By the way, I don't leave until Saturday late morning/early afternoon!) I promise LOTS of pics in Italy. Today it's just words, unfortunately. :) 2008-09-11 - Just the end of the day. A little bit anxious about packing, as I've packed too much already. 2008-09-11 - Today is all about spirit. 2008-09-10 - Conflicted and otherwise relatively useless today. As usual! 2008-09-09 - Oh I hope this fever passes quickly. 2008-09-09 - plus ça change, plus c'est la même chose 2008-09-09 - It's all for the birds. 2008-09-08 - Meditation, calm, relaxation for the next four days. 2008-09-08 - Romance and chickens. Not at the same time. Oh and I should warn you that I am a very poor cook. 2008-09-08 - Cornbread and I can't think of anything else 2008-09-07 - Some quick photos and then it's back to Il Post!no 2008-09-07 - Sleeping sitting up. :) 2008-09-07 - Water, water, water, please. Oh and a new digestive system. 2008-09-06 - How's this for social? :) 2008-09-05 - Rolling, rolling, rolling. 2008-09-05 - When I opened the window, a squirrel was actually SITTING ON THE WINDOW SILL. ARRRRRRRRRRGHHHH 2008-09-04 - Walking walking walking...like a bird on a wire...in a daydream 2008-09-04 - Smile if you're extroverted. 2008-09-04 - Munch. Munch. Munch. 2008-09-04 - Off I go to work. Please excuse my spelling 2008-09-03 - Chianti, here I come! 2008-09-03 - Cry me a river 2008-09-03 - Getting my complaining out so that it doesn't taint my day. 2008-09-03 - Getting my complaining out so that it doesn't taint my day. 2008-09-02 - The dudes love me. The dudes love me. (It's called affirmation. ;-)) 2008-09-02 - Work, work, work. Must think only positive thoughts about work! 2008-09-02 - Chop chop chop I'm so on the ball for me. This won't last... 2008-09-02 - The economist in the library with the candlestick. 2008-09-01 - The long and the short end of the stick. 2008-09-01 - Sticky, stickies, free. 2008-08-31 - I'm clearing out space in my life and in my heart for everything that I want in life. 2008-08-31 - Pics to tell the story. 2008-08-31 - A good weekend. The weekend is moving forward. 2008-08-30 - Trust. Believe in the process. 2008-08-30 - A few mishaps, but still breathing 2008-08-29 - I embrace change, actually. Sometimes too much, lately too little. But the only constant is change, non? 2008-08-29 - Yes, I do like my wall. 2008-08-29 - \"It shows a sort of conceited independence; a self-sufficiency without air.\" 2008-08-28 - Wholesome. Meditative. Clearly focused on diffusing the anxiety, viewing work with the perspective it merits. 2008-08-28 - And what stage is anger, again? 2008-08-28 - I just noticed that I have a giant spider-web death trap for myriad insects hanging above my computer. I've never noticed it before. I'm not much of a housekeeper, methinks. 2008-08-27 - One day at a time. 2008-08-27 - And the packs of cycling dudes were all going DOWNHILL as I was huffing and puffing my way UPHILL. One waved though. ;) 2008-08-27 - A wave of pessimism came out of nowhere! 2008-08-26 - Bella figura 2008-08-26 - It feels...slow today. Which probably equates only to lonely. 2008-08-26 - Unsettling night 2008-08-25 - I say SUPERB 2008-08-25 - The rain in Florence falls mainly on the fifteenth. 2008-08-25 - grateful for...crispy, gluten-free cereal 2008-08-24 - Naming and being named. 2008-08-24 - Day off and Saturday cycling 2008-08-23 - Some new potatoes and an Italian count, per favore! 2008-08-23 - Afternoon struggles with indecision. 2008-08-23 - Small rant! 2008-08-23 - The sun just keeps on getting brighter and shinier... 2008-08-22 - I was smiling when I woke up this morning. I KNEW that there was a good reason! 2008-08-22 - Why is spelling such a challenge? 2008-08-21 - Inglese italianato e un diavolo incarnato 2008-08-21 - Thursday evening, nothing special at all! 2008-08-20 - I want to say that I hate computers, but meeting people whom I would never meet in daily life is well worth the trials... 2008-08-20 - Delayed gratification indeed. 2008-08-19 - From the sticky monster 2008-08-18 - And a happy evening to you! 2008-08-17 - The moon out my skylight is full. I'd better remember to close it else I'll have a squirrel visitor in the night again, I'm sure. :) 2008-08-17 - Natural 2008-08-17 - Bad hair and opportunity missed. 2008-08-17 - Like gazelles 2008-08-16 - Bon. Bon. Bon 2008-08-16 - Super great 2008-08-16 - Until we meet again.. 2008-08-15 - This ragamuffin is Italia bound. I just love the way that that little chick is inching to the right... 2008-08-15 - Skirmishes there will be. 2008-08-14 - Silly 2008-08-14 - One day until the weekend! I wish I had the energy (and a car) to get to the F0lk Festival. 2008-08-13 - Hello from the post-a-holic! 2008-08-13 - Notes on \"flotation devices,\"as my one friend is wont to say. 2008-08-13 - Cheer! 2008-08-13 - - 2008-08-13 - Excitement in the morning! 2008-08-12 - Self-esteem workshop. Attempt 1. 2008-08-12 - With apologies to Fifi for theft. :) 2008-08-12 - Oh sugar daddy, where art thou?? ;) 2008-08-11 - It's just me - boring McBoring. 2008-08-11 - Morning routines 2008-08-10 - Now to make the most of the remaining hours of the weekend! 2008-08-10 - There's just a tiny bit of sun peeking out from behind a cloud.. 2008-08-09 - Oh I'd like to be the girl... 2008-08-09 - It's a wonderful world 2008-08-08 - Nothing is lost. 2008-08-07 - I'm really, really enjoying life this week. 2008-08-07 - Simple doodles. Nothing profound. 2008-08-06 - And I need to find my Korean phrasebook to give to a junior colleague... 2008-08-06 - If you're having trouble sleeping, read this entry... 2008-08-05 - She's my brandy alexander 2008-08-04 - I'm the most annoyingly prolific pseudo-diarist ever! 2008-08-04 - Hope you are all well. I'm DRUNK! 2008-08-04 - A good butt helps one to nurture strength of spirit, non? 2008-08-04 - Skirt 2008-08-04 - Somehow, I managed to injure myself 2008-08-03 - My mug. 2008-08-03 - From now on I think I'll eschew honesty in favour of pictures. 2008-08-02 - Drying off. 2008-08-01 - There are things I'd love to be able to understand... 2008-08-01 - I feel marginally better for having written a few words. 2008-07-31 - So I think that maybe I've been having an allergic reaction to the wheat that I've been stupidly eating. :( 2008-07-31 - I must be ill or something, because I have never before felt so weary... 2008-07-30 - I feel like a gerbil on a wheel... 2008-07-30 - No exercise for me today but a walk. :( 2008-07-29 - A run did me some good. Though I am still SOOOOO tired. 2008-07-29 - In which I complain. But only a little bit. 2008-07-28 - Eat, please eat! 2008-07-27 - \"Shak3speare is a drunken savage with some imagination, whose plays please only in London and Canada.\" - Volt@ire 2008-07-27 - Dude-l-o-mania, part deux. 2008-07-27 - Short notes. Deleted others. 2008-07-25 - A Friday wish of joy and summer fun for you! 2008-07-24 - So many things to think about. So much for the \"not thinking\" thing. :) 2008-07-24 - Maybe I'm just lazy.... 2008-07-23 - Too much writing today. I must launch into other things. 2008-07-23 - Roommates entry: This is LOOOOOONNNNNGGG. My apologies to those who don't like an excess of words! You might want to skim. 2008-07-23 - So I'm at home and I find it to be torturous! 2008-07-22 - Thinking, and yet not thinking. 2008-07-22 - Mornings, mornings, mornings. 2008-07-21 - Easy breezy underperforming me. 2008-07-21 - This morning, sitting here, I actually started thinking that I would figure out how to move to Paris for next year!!!??? 2008-07-20 - Gratitude, part two: San Min!ato at sunset, with an annoying (at least at that point in time) Australian man in tow! :) 2008-07-20 - gratitude. doubled 2008-07-20 - A lovely, lovely day. Sometimes you just need to exert extra effort to flush out the anxiety. 2008-07-20 - (Mostly now deleted - too angsty) No need to read this one - very long and thoughtful and personal. Just thoughts I needed to get down on \"paper.\" 2008-07-19 - Did Rob3rt Browning do away with EBB?? 2008-07-18 - Wheeeeeeeeeeee 2008-07-17 - A momentous day. And I was wearing gold shoes with little golden bows (pics two posts back!). What's NOT to like? 2008-07-17 - More \"G\" 2008-07-17 - G is today's letter. 2008-07-16 - Some very silly thoughts from a very silly woman. :) 2008-07-16 - I reall need some barley. That's it. 2008-07-16 - Very groggy this morning! 2008-07-15 - So much better today. Thank God. 2008-07-15 - Thank you and love and hope to you! 2008-07-14 - First message to self: Stop thinking and instead enjoy! 2008-07-14 - I really shouldn't complain. In actual fact I mean to be diarying to myself moreso than complaining. :) 2008-07-14 - Another work week begins... 2008-07-13 - No touching allowed. I'm not subtle at all, am I? 2008-07-13 - What an EXCELLENT day. 2008-07-13 - Final collages... 2008-07-13 - Collage craziness!! 2008-07-13 - More collage pics! 2008-07-13 - collage in the works! Hugs to BoXx for setting the example!! 2008-07-13 - Resources. I'm talking resources. 2008-07-12 - Art therapy, for real :) 2008-07-12 - Blue, grey, pink, yellow, black. 2008-07-12 - So that be it. I'm still staring at my red dress in amazement - it's glorious. 2008-07-12 - I'm sure I'll be back, but for now I'm attempting to keep this brief. 2008-07-11 - What a looooong day at the office. 2008-07-11 - Back to the OFFICE. WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH 2008-07-11 - Just some thoughts on running and so on. Please excuse the lack of editing as this is - as usual- being done off the cuff. 2008-07-10 - Leaving the waste behind. The pieces of my lfie did not fall away, lost. 2008-07-09 - Rock hard, it is. N3wfoundland, I mean. 2008-07-08 - Talking to myself a little bit. Filling the lonely hours. :) 2008-07-08 - Sauna-living gets me riled up. 2008-07-08 - I'm starting the day out with Anna's recommended breathing and a big Om. I feel that it will be a GREAT day. I don't know why. Cheers to one and all. 2008-07-07 - For those inclined to observe and remark... 2008-07-07 - Unfathomably HOT. 2008-07-07 - I must start operation no anxiety today... 2008-07-06 - Cottage cheerfulness. Scroll down - pictures! And pics last entry! 2008-07-06 - I'm BAAAACK! 2008-07-05 - The sun is shining and it is going to be a hot-tastic Ontario summer day worthy of a GIAAAAAAAAAAANT ice cream cone in Minden. 2008-07-05 - I'm thinking of creating my own list of \"cider house\" rules for myself. I need to be disciplined. 2008-07-04 - A short work week that felt like a lengthy one.. 2008-07-03 - Dreaming before dreaming. 2008-07-03 - On the highway soon. 2008-07-03 - Just some pics. Trying to use my time wisely. :) 2008-07-03 - Soooo happy to be home. 2008-07-02 - I feel like I'm on the edge of a wee nervous breakdown 2008-07-02 - Every ounce of effort does it take when one is pretending. Which is why I need so much recovery on the weekend! 2008-07-01 - Thanks for your support!!! 2008-07-01 - I need to get a life... 2008-07-01 - I'm a little bit red, I guess. 2008-07-01 - - 2008-07-01 - Clarity en route 2008-07-01 - I sink just one notch lower. 2008-06-30 - I really believe this, if you can believe it. :) 2008-06-30 - What does this girl want?? 2008-06-30 - Meandering of my running brain. 2008-06-29 - It's just wrong for me to even post this, but I can't help myself. Besides, both my fifty year-old imaginary Italian boyfriend and my twenty-eight year-old imaginary Polish boyfriend from London just emailed me. I just CAN'T choose. 2008-06-29 - Pics of the day 2008-06-29 - Questions to ask grandmothers. And I think I figured out the reason why I have them. 2008-06-28 - Not looking the other way. But today, I wore my red shoes. I forgot that I have marvelous red wedges. If not a red dress... 2008-06-28 - Dudes, dudes. It's all about the dudes. 2008-06-28 - Sydney, redux. And I just deleted the negative parts, mostly. I don't know why I'm feeling a bit bitter towards others today - not good. I do really feel pretty good and confident about being myself, doing my thing. :) 2008-06-28 - I can say this honestly. 2008-06-27 - Yogging time. Weekend! YAY! 2008-06-27 - TGIF for sure 2008-06-26 - Me me me. Wish I had a wee bit of romance today. 2008-06-26 - run run run. wish I could stay home a bit longer this morning. need to get up earlier. 2008-06-25 - Very very meditative and actually QUITE happy at the moment. It's hotter and stinkier than you would believe here right now. Another reason that I need to move to Europe. OK. So Italy is hot. Maybe I should move to England or something. 2008-06-24 - Just a thought. 2008-06-24 - Seriously, I didn't take a breath 2008-06-24 - Sooooo forgetful. 2008-06-24 - To pizzazz or not to pizzazz 2008-06-23 - Eating would be good! 2008-06-23 - Really want to stay in bed. Maybe tomorrow! 2008-06-22 - Sunday freshness 2008-06-22 - It was a relief to wake up this morning and realize that I actually *do* still have a job. 2008-06-22 - I have good dreams 2008-06-22 - I have good dreams 2008-06-21 - Over my rainbow! Or maybe off my rainbow? 2008-06-21 - Should live for now, not for the future. Think, EB! 2008-06-21 - Meh. A night. Camping good. 2008-06-20 - I wish I could stay just here. :) 2008-06-19 - Just me again. Thinking about floating feet. 2008-06-19 - wee notes in praise of melancholy 2008-06-19 - Om. 2008-06-18 - Maybe it's disappointment? 2008-06-17 - irony 2008-06-17 - irony 2008-06-16 - Oh frailty, thy name art Ottawa! 2008-06-16 - Muffin stealer! 2008-06-16 - Muffin stealer! 2008-06-15 - End of the day not quite in tune with the earlier part. 2008-06-15 - Exciting but it is going to take some time! 2008-06-15 - I really get it now. 2008-06-14 - It IS a divine comedia! 2008-06-14 - Just a weird entry from me. 2008-06-14 - Trying to crush the rising feelings of disappointment and even despair 2008-06-13 - WARNING: PIC BELOW THAT IS NOT GOOD FOR CHILDREN TO SEE. Making amends. The last entry was more of a rant than anything! ;) 2008-06-13 - A bit untalented, am I. Apology for the rant about the se here. I really should restrain myself. I'm feeling guilty. Not good. Next entry I will try to find some photos. 2008-06-13 - THanks thanks! 2008-06-12 - Achey and probably mildly concussed but I think OK. 2008-06-12 - Oh the trouble I get myself into. But I do have a guardian angel or two or three or five. :) 2008-06-12 - a few pics 2008-06-11 - Interesting evening. I'm so glad that I'm OK. At least I think I'm OK. I spent the last five miles in the dark wondering if I was OK, because I couldn't see anything. 2008-06-11 - OH my goodness and I forgot to wish DAN A HAPPY BIRTHDAY WHEN I EMAILED HIM TODAY. I am the most self-centred person ever these days. 2008-06-10 - note to self 2008-06-10 - I wish I had a salad. 2008-06-09 - How great is that? 2008-06-09 - Ha hahahaha 2008-06-09 - Hmm...hotter than hades in my apartment. It seems dirty. 2008-06-09 - Time to find a plan 2008-06-09 - Oddly, for me, I can't even TELL you what I'm feeling. But I'm feeling so much. It's all muddled together...blue and red and pink and yellow and green...forming one big muddy puddle. 2008-06-08 - Such a long, long couple of days. Haven't run or seen anything of the big V. (Still don't like Vancouver, actually.) 2008-06-07 - Just the seed. 2008-06-05 - I'll have to beg your forgiveness, before you even read this. :) 2008-06-04 - I stil can't believe that I killed Basil! 2008-06-04 - I stil can't believe that I killed Basil! 2008-06-04 - Oh the steam runs out. It does! It does! But who cares - I'm going to Firenze. And man this Chianti is good. 2008-06-03 - Kind of muddled and confused and puzzled. Uneasy, still. Can't put my finger on it. 2008-06-03 - I feel a bit uneasy, for some reason, but all will be well. :) 2008-06-02 - Basil is growing, but weakly. 2008-06-02 - So many things... 2008-06-01 - Rethinking silly ideas. Edited * 2008-06-01 - Pictorial entry - final bike tour 2008-06-01 - Surrender 2008-06-01 - dilemma of the day 2008-06-01 - It's so gloomy, dreary and rainy here. And I'm so chilled and tired. Now cuddled up in a sweatshirt though. :) 2008-06-01 - I have to shake my head at myself... 2008-05-31 - So, so, so good, I must say. But I'm too prolific - the first entry for today was more important. This one is superfluous. 2008-05-31 - Always keep your child-like sense of wonder, and your yen for exploration. 2008-05-30 - It's not supposed to rain in the 'couv after March... 2008-05-30 - question! OMG I can't believe that I am going back to Firenze! 2008-05-30 - Making a second entry 2008-05-30 - How text-y of me. 2008-05-29 - Can't wait to make chocolate-dipped strawberries a la Fifi! 2008-05-29 - I'm quite happy - don't get the wrong impression! 2008-05-29 - - 2008-05-29 - Laugh at me if you will. And don't blame it on the sangiovese. If anything, blame it on the poppies. Those brilliant poppies. And a language that sings into my ear.. 2008-05-28 - I think that that's all for my spouting off for today. It was a daffodil day. 2008-05-27 - Ohhh so tired. I will improve. 2008-05-27 - Such an awful day. But I'm working through it. 2008-05-27 - Not a good show at all. 2008-05-26 - Almost too tired to go on, even though I have been sleeping lots lately. Just like the mice, I don't deal well with change. 2008-05-26 - So maybe I should think more? 2008-05-26 - Off I trot to work. 2008-05-26 - Have a great day! 2008-05-26 - Have a great day! 2008-05-25 - I wish this tummy pain would go away. I hope that mint tea helps. 2008-05-25 - So much to think about. I am so impatient. I must not lose hope though, or waver in my determination to get out of here. :) 2008-05-25 - Chocolate is the medicament! 2008-05-25 - Oh the brain is complicated and yet so predictable 2008-05-24 - When I think about it, I am worried about my discussion with my boss on Monday. But there is no point! 2008-05-24 - The headache is sort of gone, but not quite. 2008-05-24 - Never forget that even days have variable textures. 2008-05-24 - Brunch with Dan in a couple of hours 2008-05-23 - I think waaaaaaaaaay too much. 2008-05-23 - Be careful what you wish for... 2008-05-23 - Yes 2008-05-22 - I'm thinking of that Frida K@hlo painting with the giant, valvular heart linked to...everything. 2008-05-22 - Never underestimate the power of an uncomfortable environment. 2008-05-22 - So people are predictable, I guess 2008-05-21 - Sinatra on the radio 2008-05-21 - I wish I had some lard. 2008-05-21 - I wish I had some lard. 2008-05-21 - Just a silly ramble in the morning 2008-05-21 - OK...so I'm sort of becoming a normal abnormal person. And I'm thinking about an Italian donation. :) 2008-05-20 - So should I just go and \"get some stuff?\" Maybe I should ask for an Italian donation. (Just checking to see if you were listening. ;)) 2008-05-19 - I'm very sad. But I feel that this is a positive sadness. It is a learning sadness. 2008-05-19 - Everything must change. My consciousness is awake. 2008-05-19 - It's going to be a long march, I'm afraid. 2008-05-18 - Lessons listed. Pictures two entries back! 2008-05-18 - So everything does happen for a reason. And as said EM Forst3r via Julian S@nds. \"It is fate, but call it Italy if it pleases you...\" 2008-05-18 - Sniff sniff 2008-05-18 - alive and kicking...as was the kid doing to my seat on the last leg of my 19 hour journey... 2008-05-16 - A tired but OK end to a lovely trip. 2008-05-16 - Not quite digested yet. 2008-05-15 - Wish me luck!! 2008-05-15 - Wish me luck!! 2008-05-15 - Wish me luck!! 2008-05-15 - Summer's lease hath all too short a date.. 2008-05-15 - So many interesting thoughts. 2008-05-15 - So many interesting thoughts. 2008-05-15 - Oh how I love this country. Why do I come from the northerly land of ice and snow? 2008-05-14 - And I've got to tell them that I am a touch titschy. :) 2008-05-14 - And I've got to tell them that I am a touch titschy. :) 2008-05-13 - So the bacis are back. 2008-05-13 - Sorry. Gloomy! No need to pity me! 2008-05-13 - Afloat in a sea of youth I feel leathery all of a sudden... 2008-05-12 - I've gone a little bit olive oil crazy. I have purchased two bottles of wine and five bottles of olive oil. Given two leather jackets, a purse and two scarves...I'm thinking that I'm goign to have to start drinking, bathing in olive oil, an 2008-05-11 - Sun soaked and SOOOOO drenched in olive oil and the scent of ginestra. Must go to Santa Maria Nov3lla tomorrow to buy some perfume with that scent....Wish you were here!! 2008-05-11 - Crazy country touring! 2008-05-10 - In which I blabber nonsensically in a half-awake state in Firenze 2008-05-10 - Off on a wine tour. Do I write to the beautiful Irish guide with the lovely green eyes? That would be dumb, non? What would it be for? ;) 2008-05-09 - In which I am a bit touchy! And please do excuse the punctuation, especially near the end of this - major keyboard problems and I just gave up. 2008-05-08 - OK. Exuberance MIGHT be taking me over. And my lord have I EVER BEEN EATING SOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH. 2008-05-06 - SO many photos but uploading will be difficult! (And I don't have software for cropping.) 2008-05-05 - xoxoxox 2008-05-04 - Sometimes even *I* think that I should slap myself and say, \"Get over yourself!\" 2008-05-04 - Back to myself 2008-05-04 - Sleep really does help. Sorry - LONG entry 2008-05-04 - OK. Tomorrow I must plan and organize for ITALY! 2008-05-04 - OK. Tomorrow I must plan and organize for ITALY! 2008-05-03 - WHYYYYY do I need a chemistry lesson? 2008-05-03 - Trying to crush the stupid, pointless ache 2008-05-03 - I do hope that my time is at least somewhat near. 2008-05-03 - I do hope that my time is at least somewhat near. 2008-05-03 - self talk 2008-05-03 - Sore throat of the allergens in the air variety. 2008-05-02 - Just some pics. Look closely 2008-05-02 - Hello hello hello 2008-05-01 - Dr. Ph!l I am not. 2008-04-30 - the notes of the day 2008-04-29 - the evening goes on... 2008-04-29 - I have Katie Holmes hair right now. But so does everyone else now. I'm scared! 2008-04-29 - Just a small detour 2008-04-28 - Trying to reprogram 2008-04-28 - Hope you all had great days. 2008-04-28 - And tonight I have to prepare the clothes for the women's shelter, do my taxes, decide whether to cancel my haircut tomorrow! 2008-04-27 - What might have been, what is. 2008-04-27 - PS 2008-04-27 - I can do so much, if I choose! 2008-04-27 - Thank goodness for furry things. Well except my tongue. 2008-04-27 - Oh my goodness I am a fool! 2008-04-27 - Confusion, genuine confusion 2008-04-26 - Take me now! (Edited) And I'm talking about the Black D3ath, not you, Andrea! 2008-04-26 - Half-baked thoughts over pistachio nuts. 2008-04-26 - Morning! 2008-04-25 - Men in tights. No - luscious men in tights. 2008-04-25 - Just me again. 2008-04-24 - Oh the new friends! Thanks! 2008-04-24 - morning in the EB house 2008-04-24 - lunch on a limb...but with all my limbs...barely 2008-04-24 - A little bit under-rested but you wouldn't know it from my bright cheeks and flippy hair! 2008-04-24 - oh la la la la la la 2008-04-22 - Little green giant of my own. 2008-04-22 - More self-flattery, I'm afraid. And here I descend into teen-speak, for some reason. 2008-04-22 - The morning draws and wanders 2008-04-22 - And I still haven't done my taxes, yet, can you believe it? 2008-04-21 - Je suis chanceuse! 2008-04-21 - Monday morning fatigue - not good. Thank goodness it's French morning and so only a half day of fascination with the nation's line dances. :) 2008-04-21 - Monday morning fatigue - not good. Thank goodness it's French morning and so only a half day messing up the nation's line dances. :) 2008-04-20 - Et il a dit, \"Vous etes jolie comme une italienne.\" 2008-04-20 - whiling away the day, though I did have a nice walk in the sunshine! 2008-04-20 - Oh lord, the bait is in the water. Too bad all that ever gets bitten is my optimism. :) Who am I kidding? I have an endlessly deep well of optimism. For this I am grateful. :) 2008-04-20 - Headache-y today. Rats! 2008-04-19 - Dum dah dum dum dum! I'm singing Schubert's fifth symphony, first movement! Yes, I am! 2008-04-18 - Curiouser and curiouser 2008-04-18 - Expressing my preferences and *not* preferences. 2008-04-18 - I'm feeling a little bit grumpy, frankly. Nothing weird or abnormal - just grumpy. :) 2008-04-18 - Well you know... 2008-04-17 - Long, long, long. Mes excuses. Mi scusi! 2008-04-17 - Oh sweet justification 2008-04-17 - must run off to a meeting. Can't believe it's Thursday already. 2008-04-16 - I did it. And I'm not going to regret it this time. 2008-04-16 - Whiling the time away 2008-04-16 - Thank goodness I am apparently not actually insane 2008-04-16 - Shame shame shame 2008-04-16 - xoxoxx 2008-04-16 - I'm sorry for being such wimp and for seemingly begging attention and pity. It is not my intention. I'm just working out the varying thoughts in my crazy head. 2008-04-15 - Gotta run out to speak with my landlord, but I'm sure I'll be back - mildly inebriated - later. :) Oh lordy I learn but slowly. 2008-04-15 - sad, honestly 2008-04-15 - I have learned my lesson. Hope wounds. 2008-04-14 - Oh when I tumble I roll down a ravine. I really did that once. I was running in the morning - I am NEVER good in the morning - and my boyfriend didn't at first miss me and then eventually looked behind when he realized that I was no longer with him. 2008-04-13 - good grief i hope it's not something ulcerous 2008-04-12 - A pleasant day, but a rainy one and so one spent mostly indoors. 2008-04-11 - Definitely very, very happy with the progress made this week. An excellent week. A daffodil week. 2008-04-11 - Ah sigh...true but still stranger than fiction 2008-04-11 - :) Self-esteem workshop 2008-04-10 - My tongue still hurts, if you can believe it. And it never even wags. Except on here. 2008-04-10 - What a pain in the arse 2008-04-10 - Always the same. ;) 2008-04-09 - Tongue hurting a bit, for some reason. 2008-04-09 - Oh indeed, the trouble runs deeper than I had thought. 2008-04-08 - 2nd entry - sorry - previous one shorter and funnier, this one long and even persnickity in places. FOrgive me! 2008-04-08 - Just more vanity...but only a little 2008-04-07 - COWS! 2008-04-07 - A day of lovely, beautiful opposites! 2008-04-07 - Let's see how long this will last. 2008-04-07 - Action is way better than fear! 2008-04-06 - A laundry list of the nothing that I did this afternoon! 2008-04-06 - Canceled my run, eating potatoes, and enjoying the sun through my window. About to read a book, start drawing! 2008-04-05 - Many apologies for the nothing that is this entry! 2008-04-03 - Definitely need to take better care of myself! 2008-04-03 - So many implications of a health problem. Oh no! 2008-04-03 - So many implications of a health problem. Oh no! 2008-04-02 - Babbling again! 2008-04-02 - Babbling again! 2008-04-02 - I'M a crazy girl who will have to carry her own towel 2008-04-02 - things that make you go...hmm.... 2008-04-01 - Thank you thank you thank you wonderful, caring women! 2008-03-31 - Life's a series of rolling hills. 2008-03-30 - Can you believe it? I've made a sort-of decision! ;) 2008-03-30 - A little bit overburdened, but I'm going to try to forget about it. Yes, the struggles are rolling off my shoulders as I write. :) 2008-03-30 - Settling deadlines. Making choices. 2008-03-30 - complaining and not sleeping. Not good! 2008-03-29 - Tooting my big horn! 2008-03-28 - And now for the weekend! 2008-03-28 - And now for the weekend! 2008-03-28 - Oh why oh why can't I be a different person? 2008-03-26 - My rants are produced with a smile. :) 2008-03-26 - My rants are produced with a smile. :) 2008-03-25 - Ominosity 2008-03-24 - Will someone feed me a grape, please? 2008-03-23 - A very nice day, but already the weekend feels too short. 2008-03-23 - What is really going on? 2008-03-22 - Since the only choices on tv tonight are Mme. Doubtfire and Monst3r-in-law, I think I'm going out to the video store... 2008-03-22 - Truly disappointed in people who have no pride or scruples 2008-03-21 - In which I circle and muddle myself and reveal why I actually am NOT disgusted by an English breakfast. 2008-03-20 - money schmoney. 2008-03-20 - until the thin lady sings 2008-03-18 - Vegetables and industrial food and unsexy true crime 2008-03-18 - Vegetables and industrial food and unsexy true crime 2008-03-17 - SLLLEEEEEEPY 2008-03-17 - Green people note: I will not be joining you tonight. :( I do wish I'd bought myself a Guinness, however... 2008-03-16 - A little bit sad about missing the bike trip, but looking forward to other new adventures! 2008-03-15 - In the category of \"What were you smoking, exactly?\" 2008-03-15 - yellow is the colour of the afternoon 2008-03-15 - creating my own mythology, dragging it from the ashes, once again... 2008-03-13 - A potato by any other name a woman. 2008-03-12 - I'm still out of sorts, I can't lie. 2008-03-11 - Oh the fatigue. 2008-03-11 - The memory disk was erased again! 2008-03-11 - Not sure where to go from here. 2008-03-10 - Please remove this woman from my life. 2008-03-09 - Another Sunday came and disappeared... 2008-03-09 - I'm hurting today. 2008-03-09 - Some winter shots for you! 2008-03-08 - I really can't believe how contented I am right now. 2008-03-08 - DVD player broken. The crime! 2008-03-07 - Notes on a scandal. Not. 2008-03-07 - Notes on a scandal. Not. 2008-03-06 - And now for something different... 2008-03-04 - Puzzling and annoying day 2008-03-03 - I'm too busy and yet completely inert 2008-03-02 - Just a slow Sunday afternoon, and I've already eaten a whole bag of carrots! 2008-03-02 - Just a slow Sunday afternoon, and I've already eaten a whole bag of carrots! 2008-03-01 - Migraine hiccough. 2008-03-01 - I shouldn't say these things out loud, perhaps. But they're true. 2008-02-28 - good to know your money is going to good use... 2008-02-27 - Life feels a bit overpacked at the moment. I think I need a pact to get home at a reasonable time tomorrow. 2008-02-26 - another day ends and another one begins again in a few minutes. DOH! 2008-02-25 - Thoughts before sleeping. 2008-02-24 - Nothing like a good dose of meow with your chocolate mousse and carrot birthday cake... 2008-02-24 - Heavy and light as air all at once. 2008-02-23 - It's been a long time. :) 2008-02-21 - I just ran for 2 hours and now am going out to pick up a special pizza. Talk about running in order to pig out. 2008-02-20 - Well at least I don't have the mumps. This I can say is true. I think I need to start drinking though. 2008-02-19 - When you face the worst in a situation you realize that it's actually laughable... 2008-02-18 - A bit grumpy but otherwise \"OK\" 2008-02-15 - Hmmm..February 15. 2008-02-15 - Full of cheese. Needing a beer. 2008-02-14 - Mmmmm chocolately evening 2008-02-14 - Six word love poems are dangerous. 2008-02-13 - Oh goodness how I love bite-sized poetry! 2008-02-12 - Ce soir, demain matin 2008-02-12 - Vintage here I come. 2008-02-11 - You don't say, yah? 2008-02-11 - Toooooo much exercissssssseeee. 2008-02-10 - Yeah, I'm not oooolllld... 2008-02-10 - Mumbling and estimating 2008-02-09 - The secret is power 2008-02-07 - Some minor lows and highs 2008-02-06 - Shrinking b00bi3s 2008-02-06 - Shrinking b00bi3s 2008-02-05 - A whirlwind of a couple of days...and I nearly mispelled whirlwind. :) 2008-02-05 - A whirlwind of a couple of days...and I nearly mispelled whirlwind. :) 2008-02-05 - A whirlwind of a couple of days...and I nearly mispelled whirlwind. :) 2008-02-04 - I'm done. 2008-02-04 - Italy or ocean? 2008-02-04 - Thinking... 2008-02-03 - brunch with a flirty frenchman and philosophy from the mouths of babes 2008-02-02 - Me complaining, again. 2008-02-01 - Canadian rap stars and ankle-length wearable garbage bags 2008-01-31 - shorty pants 2008-01-30 - Late night, hungry, sort of working my way through the morasses 2008-01-29 - I know what I SHOULD do and yet I choose to do everything that is ill-advised...and all AT ONCE, no less! 2008-01-28 - I think I might be OK. :) 2008-01-28 - I think I might be OK. 2008-01-28 - I think I might be OK. 2008-01-28 - Oy! More later! 2008-01-28 - Anne Fr@nk 2008-01-27 - Not a great weekend, but in the end a great weekend. 2008-01-27 - A little bit of sun on my soul today. Plus some skating and cookies. Nice! 2008-01-27 - A little bit of sun on my soul today. Plus some skating and cookies. Nice! 2008-01-27 - Analysis and skating. 2008-01-27 - Analysis and skating. 2008-01-26 - quick note on the ballet 2008-01-26 - Oh I should not be let outside 2008-01-25 - Amazing how in a funk the creative juices can sometimes completely dry up. 2008-01-25 - Amazing how in a funk the creative juices can sometimes completely dry up. 2008-01-24 - Cross, I tell you! 2008-01-23 - tipsy and tired and now fortunately full of curry 2008-01-23 - - 2008-01-22 - sloptastic me 2008-01-21 - Sore throat, sore head, sore heart...talking myself out of it 2008-01-20 - Dinner party and eating aversion. 2008-01-19 - dippy eggs and personal bests 2008-01-19 - spin around 2008-01-19 - Oh to know one's faults. :( 2008-01-17 - Hmm...Somewhat glad that I didn't go out tonight. 2008-01-17 - another day I wish I hadn't had. 2008-01-16 - Barbi3's dream house. 2008-01-15 - The insanity, part II: My business prospects ain't grand. But they do involve sequined headbands. 2008-01-15 - I'll never eat again...Good thing I wore a wrap dress today. 2008-01-14 - Mutt and J3ff 2008-01-13 - Why do I even try? ;) 2008-01-13 - nothing much. a bit of hair. 2008-01-12 - Bungled again! 2008-01-12 - Spinning my yarns. 2008-01-11 - Friday power boost 2008-01-10 - thank goodness I have a big apartment and a small ego :D 2008-01-10 - Things that make you go hmmm... 2008-01-09 - Me, food - canned and wept into 2008-01-09 - trying to keep my head up. scratch that. Will keep my head up. 2008-01-08 - Only two days into the week and already cross 2008-01-07 - trust the search 2008-01-06 - It's all about the loveseat love 2008-01-06 - Sofa nonsense. Very boring entry, in spite of my efforts to write and then delete 2008-01-05 - Sitting in a clean apartment, the light and activated person who must indeed be me. 2008-01-05 - Sitting in a clean apartment, the light and activated person that must indeed be me. 2008-01-04 - half an entry 2008-01-04 - I stayed up late last night mostly making soup and watching Pride and Prejudice. This strikes me as self-sabotage. 2008-01-03 - Let's talk about stress, baby 2008-01-02 - The last day of freedom 2008-01-01 - Mild headache, full of wheeziness 2007-12-31 - Resolution: Concision 2007-12-31 - public television good for your health? 2007-12-30 - my beloved artist friend wrote! 2007-12-30 - sort of a laundry list of pre-NYE thinking 2007-12-29 - Just ignore me. I do believe that some caveman is going to have to swoop in and grab me by what little hair I have left, take me to his cave, and thereby make the mate-selection decision easy for me. :) 2007-12-29 - Me advance-rejecting IronDude 2007-12-28 - Backed into a corner without any remaining excuses! 2007-12-28 - Me being me. 2007-12-27 - doing penance 2007-12-26 - turkey fat and dating turkeys :) 2007-12-26 - Oh triteness thou art my middle name 2007-12-25 - Good grief I do hope it's not the early onset of some outrageous disease of mental degradation! (Feel free to leave honest comments...I don't offend easily.. :)) 2007-12-24 - Totally in a Leon@rd Coh3n mood today. 2007-12-24 - update! update! 2007-12-24 - I'm so full and yet I keep on eating. 2007-12-23 - It's a beautiful day! 2007-12-22 - I'll karate kick you if you call me chicka. :) But please do forgive me for a soddenly \"banal\" entry. 2007-12-21 - Baiting bait am I. 2007-12-20 - Rebuilding required. 2007-12-19 - Three hour recovery in two steps. 2007-12-19 - I hope you'll excuse me this pity parade 2007-12-18 - Starting to wonder if I have mad cow disease and a brain like swiss cheese, actually. 2007-12-17 - Bought dress and more butter, possibly killed Ken and Ava's plants whilst they are in Cuba, and accidentally came on to a guy on the net.. 2007-12-16 - Baking shortbread 2007-12-16 - More on the party, now that I've had 6 hours of sleep 2007-12-16 - And she used to lead a crew of chantarelle pickers in the Queen Ch@rlotte Islands! 2007-12-15 - Saturday migraine 2007-12-14 - plodding erasure! And the sun will come up tomorrow! 2007-12-14 - Such a lonely, lonely day. If I were thinking suicidal thoughts it would be right about now. 2007-12-13 - Kind of proud of the fact that I am prepared for both of the xmas parties that I am due to attend this weekend. 2007-12-12 - I'm starting to notice that I mostly come here to criticize myself. I think I deserve it though. 2007-12-11 - tree -entry II 2007-12-11 - super frustrated 2007-12-10 - OK. So I feel better, mostly because Monday is OVER! 2007-12-09 - Really up and down these days. I'm maintaining a basic equilibrium, and getting things done, but I'm finding it difficult to push away thoughts of loneliness. And Dan bought me lunch today. How ungrateful am I? 2007-12-08 - I'm really, really happy that I made the choice to try the cycling class. 2007-12-07 - making amends 2007-12-07 - Quick - the trick to avoiding depression! 2007-12-07 - Me being gloomy again. I'm trying to be honest without being self-pitying. :) 2007-12-06 - bundled up and endorphined out of my slump :) 2007-12-06 - I'm loving the Crowd3d House these days. Reminds me of the past, I think. Makes me happy, anyhow. 2007-12-06 - I wasn't happy today. In fact, I was pretty useless. 2007-12-05 - Much babble about nothing. 2007-12-04 - Pensive 2007-12-04 - Kind of grumpy. 2007-12-02 - It's really colder than a witch's tit out there. And the colder the better, I say - as long as there is snow. 2007-12-01 - words 2007-12-01 - A portrait of the artist as a formerly stilted young woman. 2007-12-01 - Saturday planning of activities. I will, I will, I will get a life! 2007-11-30 - I am so discouraged. I'm not even sad or depressed. I simply throw my hands up in the air and proclaim \"I GIVE UP!\" 2007-11-29 - lame on four continents 2007-11-28 - Busy but not contented 2007-11-27 - the undateable 2007-11-27 - silly me 2007-11-26 - - 2007-11-25 - Lists, lists, lists 2007-11-25 - Interesting but WAYYYYY too short weekend. 2007-11-24 - How could one be lonely in a world such as this? 2007-11-24 - How could one be lonely in a world such as this? 2007-11-24 - Intentionally not talking about work. 2007-11-24 - - 2007-11-23 - There is cheese and then there is CHEESE! 2007-11-22 - All I see when I close my eyes is spreadsheets...and when I open them the spreadsheets are still there, and the formulas are dancing around in evil little devil-dances! EEEEEK! 2007-11-21 - Nothing much at all. I'm avoiding being miserable. I'm taking a detour from misery, so to speak. 2007-11-20 - Work saga day II, entry II: I've stopped eating. I should remedy that. 2007-11-20 - More ramblings on the terror that is work. 2007-11-19 - I possibly made a huge mistake... 2007-11-19 - Please let me find myself an activity. 2007-11-18 - Ebbing energy today, physical anyhow. The spirit, the spiritual are intact! 2007-11-18 - The str@ight roads are the ro@ds to success; the crook3d roads are the roads to g3nius 2007-11-17 - oh I am never going to drink again... 2007-11-17 - Not a good end to the night. 2007-11-16 - - 2007-11-16 - Using my time wisely, as I sit at work staring dreamily off into space. ;-) 2007-11-15 - caveat emptor 2007-11-15 - I'm making myself ill by eating an entire garlic baguette! Yuck. I'm nearing the end of it. 2007-11-15 - mouse in action 2007-11-14 - OLE! 2007-11-14 - quick photos of remembrance holiday 2007-11-13 - I feel like making apple crisp but I know that if I do I will be falling asleep in it... 2007-11-13 - To enfin on her 37 and 1/2th birthday 2007-11-13 - I am a LOSER with a capital L 2007-11-13 - I am a LOSER with a capital L 2007-11-13 - I am a LOSER with a capital L 2007-11-12 - Oh my goodness it is late and I should jump into bed... 2007-11-12 - Oh my goodness it is late and I should jump into bed... 2007-11-12 - a fun day, but now it is raining... 2007-11-12 - a fun day, but now it is raining... 2007-11-12 - Flat out. 2007-11-11 - My apology 2007-11-11 - Remember to Live! 2007-11-10 - A bit of running 2007-11-10 - Thank you so much for your kind comments! Yes, video store guys are not the best sources of information at the end of a long grumpiness-inducing day! 2007-11-09 - emergency roquefort 2007-11-09 - If only I had stayed in bed this morning!!!! 2007-11-08 - crazy passionate 2007-11-08 - Me at work being naughty! 2007-11-07 - Me coming home from work at 8 p.m. again. ARGHHH 2007-11-06 - dissecting today's stupidity and disappointment 2007-11-05 - Monday is by far the longest day of the week, is it not??? 2007-11-04 - Sunday morn. 2007-11-04 - Sunday morn. 2007-11-04 - please forgive me this morning if I seem to be persnickety - hormones, you know! I should delete this as now that I have purged myself of these thoughts I am feeling delighted and clear-headed again! But I believe in honesty so it will rest. 2007-11-03 - Saturday afternoon, still feeling sorry for myself, even though an NHL trainer asked me out for tonight. He is hot. But we all know that I like hot of the intellectual and not biceps kind. :( 2007-11-03 - Fuddle duddle... 2007-11-01 - quick relieving of suspense 2007-11-01 - I find my heart every day when I do one thing: open my eyes. 2007-10-31 - lazy neighbour 2007-10-30 - quick Tuesday part II, runny-nosed update :) 2007-10-30 - \"It IS fate. But call it Italy, if it pleases you Vicar\" :) 2007-10-30 - Being silly, Monday evening. Not a good omen for the remainder of the week. 2007-10-28 - I caught a bit of sun on a run earlier this afternoon... 2007-10-28 - lovely, lovely Sunday 2007-10-27 - Thank goodness I was born a woman... 2007-10-27 - Saturday, part III 2007-10-27 - Saturday, part II 2007-10-27 - Saturday, part II 2007-10-27 - Saturday, part II 2007-10-27 - Saturday in the grey and drear with the window open and the rain persistently descending 2007-10-26 - quick note pre- nightcap 2007-10-25 - THINKING, WRIT LARGE 2007-10-24 - Wednesday part II 2007-10-24 - Wednesday part I 2007-10-23 - I'm going to be wondering soon why I stuck out my rotten workplace for as long as I did... 2007-10-23 - poor sleep, job worry 2007-10-22 - entry part II: pics of parl! 2007-10-22 - quickie post-work (LATE, AS USUAL) 2007-10-21 - Quickie, post Guinness (be warned) 2007-10-21 - the musings of an insomniac who ate a chicken burger at 3 a.m. 2007-10-20 - epiphany ce soir 2007-10-20 - Notes from a negligent mind 2007-10-20 - pie for breakkie! 2007-10-19 - - 2007-10-19 - - 2007-10-18 - major life and job crossroads 2007-10-17 - Don't move to Canada 2007-10-17 - Don't move to Canada 2007-10-16 - - 2007-10-15 - I give up. 2007-10-15 - I hate my job. 2007-10-14 - I never have learned to make decisions. 2007-10-13 - hail storm 2007-10-13 - Saturday meandering...again. 2007-10-12 - Dull and ineffectual today, but some days are like that. 2007-10-11 - In which i try to convince myself that having three job options is not a *bad* thing. 2007-10-10 - Taking so much for granted... 2007-10-10 - thinking 2007-10-10 - Live long and prosper...and always wear a garland of stars 2007-10-09 - Tuesday, part II 2007-10-09 - musings on a grumble-y stomach 2007-10-08 - I honestly wish sometimes that life could be one long Highl@nd G@mes... 2007-10-08 - Paranoia reigns! 2007-10-08 - turkey day part IV 2007-10-07 - turkey day part III 2007-10-07 - turkey day part II 2007-10-07 - In which I ramble about boring things... 2007-10-06 - I couldn't help myself but watch this... 2007-10-06 - Ah, sleep perchance to mentally equilibriate. ;) 2007-10-05 - disappointed but looking for a silver lining. 2007-10-05 - I'm actually a bit in the dumps right now, so please do excuse me. 2007-10-04 - Like I said, I'm a moron in more ways than one. Leave it to me to forget the obvious. :) 2007-10-03 - In which I try to convince you in one breath that I am both not ignorant and profoundly ignorant... 2007-10-03 - weird, weird, weird 2007-10-03 - - 2007-10-02 - I'm so tired of uncertainty. It's making me crazy. Bring on Roma... 2007-10-01 - Dribble drabble 2007-09-30 - judgmental little me 2007-09-29 - Mercy. 2007-09-29 - foreign policy should be conducted by b0n vivants, non? 2007-09-28 - It's the all about me show, all the time. 2007-09-26 - major suckage and major mistakes. and major breakage. 2007-09-26 - oh stomach aches...another slip-up at the end of the day... 2007-09-26 - recovery day, part II (second entry for the day) 2007-09-26 - sinus pressure... 2007-09-25 - So not a good day; please let tomorrow be better... 2007-09-24 - A quick run with C. reengages me with visions of glory... 2007-09-24 - For some reason, today, I feel as though I should be ashamed of myself. 2007-09-23 - I'm a silly woman. Really silly. The poet scientist set me straight 2007-09-23 - I really feel quite sad at the moment. 2007-09-22 - Patience thee be my burden!!! 2007-09-22 - I ate watermelon and flax bread for dinner tonight. 2007-09-20 - NOT on vacation 2007-09-19 - I should be in bed...naughty naughty me. I'm wound up. And drinking a chilled glass of white... 2007-09-18 - UUUUUUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGHHHH 2007-09-16 - Dorothea, my literary alter ego... 2007-09-14 - Frenchies 2007-09-13 - Pizza and research 2007-09-12 - The babbling of a woman with a rotten cold. 2007-09-09 - the lazy dater 2007-09-08 - A few small trials at the end of the week. 2007-09-06 - spinning out of control 2007-09-04 - literary criticism 2007-09-03 - Shultze and Labour Day cleanse 2007-09-02 - Basilic 2007-09-01 - In search of fresh fruit... 2007-08-31 - Not a great couple of days, darn it. 2007-08-29 - My stomach is full of scotch mints. And they feel like rocks. I know, I know, they have dissolved already. :) 2007-08-26 - Sore foot. A sunny day squandered inside, I'm afraid. 2007-08-25 - market's bounty 2007-08-25 - EVERYONE WANTS ME :) But only for today. 2007-08-23 - Escape from serious injury 2007-08-20 - ugh. castration, hockey hair, and the past dug up 2007-08-19 - gum trees and Sunday runs 2007-08-18 - I'm interested in boring things. 2007-08-16 - Light tomorrow with today 2007-08-15 - More fatigue, an over-filled stomach, and too little time. 2007-08-13 - OH such a headache. And it's 9 p.m. and I haven't either eaten or exercised... ARGHHH. 2007-08-12 - I'm slowly learning good behaviour 2007-08-12 - Running, whining, wining and raspberries 2007-08-12 - Thanks to FIFI!!! 2007-08-12 - pastries and The Art of Drawing 2007-08-11 - Calling for inspiration 2007-08-08 - very, very little to report 2007-08-07 - chocolate and cheese! cheese and chocolate! 2007-08-05 - A mere grocery list 2007-08-04 - The heat wave has broken, but only slightly. 2007-07-31 - Quick tidbits written from my STEAMING HOT apartment. 2007-07-30 - banish triviality 2007-07-29 - The sun stuck to me like butterscotch... 2007-07-28 - An overcast Saturday. All is right with my world. 2007-07-24 - quick email in lieu of bedding down for the night... 2007-07-21 - No vacations this year after all, I suspect :) 2007-07-21 - No vacations this year after all, I suspect :) 2007-07-21 - Oh my throbbing head 2007-07-19 - You must jump. Just jump. 2007-07-15 - If only I could think of a suit in my closet with which my red, shiny, patent flats would not seem unreasonable! (I have a meeting with my conservative boss tomorrow, so it's a no-go. 2007-07-15 - Life gradually gains momentum again... 2007-07-15 - I lie-- I can never go to bed this early. 2007-07-14 - Watching late night tv... 2007-07-13 - Off to the Bluesfest... 2007-07-12 - I'd like to be at the seaside. 2007-07-09 - I am such a slob--I've dropped flakes of dates on the floor around my computer. I guess I ought to pick them up! 2007-07-08 - Laundry list of weekend activities. Yes, it is as exciting an entry as this desicription suggests... 2007-07-07 - Dancing around my living room in high heels, black dress and earrings with no intention of going out... :) 2007-07-07 - Must get back to this later! 2007-07-05 - - 2007-07-04 - Nights of....Ottawa 2007-07-02 - Still living a lacklustre life, I'm afraid. :) 2007-07-01 - Confusing afternoon note. 2007-07-01 - I'm baaack. Perhaps not what you want to hear. :) 2007-07-01 - It's Canada Day. Oh well. This too will pass. ;) 2007-06-28 - Indecision! 2007-06-25 - My phone rang early this morning and yet no message was left! 2007-06-23 - At home inside this weekend. But I might be able to go out. 2007-06-21 - I NEED SLEEP 2007-06-18 - OK. So I feel so much better right now. Maybe it's because I put on a crazy blue and green silk dress and high heels and I feel like I can be whatever I want to be. 2007-06-18 - Much, much better. 2007-06-17 - Sigh. 2007-06-17 - My heart slowly starts to heal. I'm bored already with the self-indulgence of my feelings in the last 24 hours. I bore myself. It's time to move forward on a more positive course. 2007-06-17 - Please let hope bear fruit. 2007-06-16 - Not a good feeling. Pretty much the worst feeling that I've ever had. I need to snap out of this, once and for all. 2007-06-15 - I'm hungry and thirsty and not in the mood for a run. But I've skipped too many lately. ..:) 2007-06-13 - short hair power 2007-06-11 - I can have most everything I need and still not be happy. ARGHH... 2007-06-11 - I can have most everything I need and still not be happy. ARGHH... 2007-06-09 - Just a tiny bit gloomy, I'm afraid. But it's time to run and then watch a lovely movie. :) 2007-06-07 - I should run. I should run. I should run! 2007-06-05 - Slightly concerned about my health 2007-06-05 - Slightly concerned about my health 2007-06-03 - I have a headache and I dread having a shower as it takes such effort to condition and comb through the rats nest of my damaged hair... 2007-06-02 - Saturday morning frustration. 2007-06-01 - What's red and red and red all over? 2007-05-30 - More stomach tea, please. 2007-05-30 - Must stop eating chocolate. I hope this is hormones.. 2007-05-29 - Epiphany! 2007-05-29 - Grow hair, grow! I just can't stand thinking that my chief thinks that I WANT to have hair like this. (She hasn't seen me with my 'real' hair. :() 2007-05-29 - Grow hair, grow! I just can't stand thinking that my chief thinks that I WANT to have hair like this. (She hasn't seen me with my 'real' hair. :() 2007-05-27 - Why can't there be two Sundays in a week? 2007-05-26 - Lilac-scented days. 2007-05-26 - Me being me. With a few pints in me. Comme d'habitude. :) 2007-05-26 - Me being me. With a few pints in me. Comme d'habitude. :) 2007-05-26 - Me being me. With a few pints in me. Comme d'habitude. :) 2007-05-24 - second short entry 2007-05-24 - second short entry 2007-05-24 - I'm evilifying myself! With help! 2007-05-23 - I bought a tube top today. Can you believe it? Blue. So inappropriate but cute and comfortable. 2007-05-21 - former boyfriends haunting me 2007-05-21 - - 2007-05-20 - Nothing like action as an antidote to inaction. 2007-05-20 - This has truly been a dark night of the soul. 2007-05-19 - Second entry for today. 2007-05-19 - I'm dressed to meet the Queen, in a strapless floral dress, matching gold shoes and a little cardigan. I had tea with old ladies this afternoon, which explains the outfit... 2007-05-19 - I'm dressed to meet the Queen, in a strapless floral dress, matching gold shoes and a little cardigan. I had tea with old ladies this afternoon, which explains the outfit... 2007-05-19 - I've had a few drinks; please forgive me. Good grief I'm starting to sound like a lush. 2007-05-17 - Talking myself out of a misguided funk. 2007-05-14 - Really messy and silly but still so well-meaning. Just me, honestly. 2007-05-12 - We always said that we were different. But we know now that we weren't. 2007-05-10 - insert deity of choice 2007-05-09 - Why didn't I take a week's holiday between jobs? 2007-05-08 - So tired, should be writing. ARGH. Stress. 2007-05-07 - I should be grateful. I should be grateful. I should be grateful. 2007-04-29 - More narcissistic meandering. Many apologies. 2007-04-28 - Life settles down. 2007-04-28 - Life settles down. 2007-04-26 - - 2007-04-26 - Excuse my euphoria...but it happens so infrequently. 2007-04-22 - Oh so tired. Need sleep. Need to eat properly again. 2007-04-21 - Almost a surreal week. Live and love life. It's mostly good. 2007-04-17 - I think this one might be a keeper 2007-04-16 - I AM giddy! 2007-04-15 - entry two: teeth 2007-04-15 - disaster alert 2007-04-14 - stay away from the light. 2007-04-12 - My hair honestly looks like sewage at the moment. I say this as a warning to all who consider dyeing their hair... 2007-04-10 - OMG NYC IS FANTASTIC 2007-04-05 - Until death do us part my ass 2007-04-04 - oh the fatigue 2007-04-03 - I may be tired, overworked, dumped...but I am one *lucky* girl. :) 2007-04-01 - Didn't I learn this at seventeen? 2007-03-31 - Oh the headache. I'm too old for hangovers, to be sure. 2007-03-30 - Missing a companion tonight. 2007-03-30 - second entry for today, though slightly less salacious than the first ;) 2007-03-29 - landlord sex scare 2007-03-28 - Sniff. Groan. Snore. 2007-03-27 - I am having asthma difficulties today and I can only imagine it to be related to the stuff that is emerging--moulds and such--from underneath the melting snow. :( 2007-03-25 - more dithering and intense fatigue 2007-03-21 - Tired. Again. 2007-03-17 - Blow me down. 2007-03-15 - I need sleep, nutrition, love and fresh water 2007-03-13 - Last week I walked to the bus in a windchill of -40. Today I walked with my coat open on melting snow, in temperatures well above zero. Go figure. 2007-03-12 - - 2007-03-11 - It must be the camembert but I feel great! 2007-03-11 - play it with drama 2007-03-11 - green lamps and pink sweaters 2007-03-10 - my distorted body image 2007-03-10 - breathe easy, breathe light 2007-03-07 - Things are ticking along...sort of. 2007-03-05 - Long, long, long, long day. 2007-03-04 - I am a bad, bad vegetarian. 2007-03-03 - I think I put on two pounds this week, all from chocolate, cheese and cupcakes. Yikes! 2007-03-02 - Just call me lard ass. 2007-02-28 - I know that life is so simple and eventually it will come to its meagre end and so I should simply not worry about any outcomes. It's all so ridiculous! 2007-02-27 - I wish that this blueberry tea contained alcohol, as it should. Have you ever tried that drink? Mmm.. 2007-02-27 - I wish that this blueberry tea contained alcohol, as it should. Have you ever tried this drink? Mmm.. 2007-02-26 - Sleep beckons, though my stomach is yet too full. 2007-02-25 - A very dry, DULL entry indeed. Be forewarned. 2007-02-24 - My bum is nearly numb from sitting in this chair for so long... 2007-02-23 - the opposite of love...second entry today 2007-02-23 - Mission weekend: cheese 2007-02-22 - I'm still a gloomy gus. :) 2007-02-20 - today's third entry 2007-02-20 - second entry for today 2007-02-20 - Please rescue me from this brain loop. 2007-02-19 - Tired, tired eyes...and a slightly runny nose. 2007-02-18 - I wish I could summon the energy to bake bread, buy cheese, watch a movie. 2007-02-17 - I need sleep. I should never drink. I should work hard. I need to get back on track in my life. 2007-02-17 - I need sleep. I should never drink. I should work hard. I need to get back on track in my life. 2007-02-14 - a cup of mint tea and then sleep as my head hits the pillow 2007-02-13 - A big heart out to everyone. 2007-02-11 - question 2007-02-11 - question 2007-02-11 - question 2007-02-11 - - 2007-02-10 - brownies and pink cardigans 2007-02-08 - I recover quickly from breakups with cowards, it seems. 2007-01-27 - I'm back to focusing largely on ME again. So you'll see more of me here. :) 2007-01-27 - I NEED a drink. 2007-01-25 - pour me a glass 2007-01-23 - I am a poster woman for what not to do with one's life. And did I mention that another woman waiting to be interviewed for the same job today looked like a model? :( 2007-01-14 - Confused, befuddled, muddled, but still smiling. 2007-01-08 - I am slowly crawling my way back to a normal existence and some better life-patterns. 2007-01-05 - I feel pissy, for lack of a better word. 2006-12-28 - dribbles 2006-12-28 - - 2006-12-24 - Let the burning stop, please! 2006-12-23 - I just paid off my credit card. That is the only good thing that I can say about today. 2006-12-19 - Whirlwind. 2006-12-15 - shortbread, red wine, and blue silk dresses 2006-12-13 - More information than you wanted but I am typing half-clothed as I just ran home and am sweaty, sweaty, sweaty. The snow melted. This weather is nuts. 2006-12-10 - Sesame rocks 2006-12-09 - insecurities 2006-12-07 - Being ME is so TIRING. I'm a tiresome woman. 2006-12-07 - And I was doing so well... 2006-12-05 - Junk food and beer...my stomach is doing backflips. 2006-12-04 - Really, really good. A really, really amazing kind of good. 2006-12-02 - conservateur also == bienfaiteur 2006-12-01 - Sleet and employment--drudgery, all 2006-11-30 - I must be getting old as I'm so tired from work I feel as though I've been flogged. 2006-11-29 - Lucky and stupid am I. I am sick on chocolate at the moment. 2006-11-28 - I'm starting in on a 500g chocolate bar as I write this. Mmmmm.... 2006-11-28 - Three sheets to the Guinness wind. 2006-11-27 - Let's just make this a scent-free event, shall we? 2006-11-26 - On the banks of my enchantment 2006-11-25 - I think I look a bit more like Virginia Woolf or George Eliot, or some other plain, long-nosed English lady novelist... 2006-11-24 - I am likely going to regret this entry...I too often think out loud. 2006-11-23 - FEELING THE LOVE 2006-11-22 - I truly am open as the sky. And moving two steps forward, one step back, but that is OK. 2006-11-22 - I'm not going to allow anything else to go wrong, from here on out. 2006-11-21 - Ah, it's a *hard* life. 2006-11-20 - I must not succumb to whatever bug I have picked up. 2006-11-20 - At least Monday is over. Four more days to go. 2006-11-19 - blue tidings 2006-11-18 - One 2006-11-18 - Nothing is lost that can't be found. 2006-11-18 - - 2006-11-15 - what I wrote when I should have been working (brief lapse in concentration ;) 2006-11-14 - Will the clouds please go ahead and part....SOON??? 2006-11-13 - Fuel oneself 2006-11-13 - The day on which I realized what a load of dryer- lint is the bundle of my regular concerns. 2006-11-12 - My own personal Love Story 2006-11-12 - Make it ugly and give me the truth. 2006-11-11 - To open up or not to open up. 2006-11-11 - I am hungover, but I had a nice time. 2006-11-09 - I must learn to embrace change again. 2006-11-08 - I wish my hormones would take a day off. 2006-11-06 - My stomach is full of delicious sake-don and yet I feel like throwing up. 2006-11-04 - Why can't I be independently wealthy and not need to work a day job? :) 2006-11-02 - in principle I am warming up to middle age 2006-10-31 - It's I'm now Pollyanna time...I've been instructed to be so by my benefactress. 2006-10-31 - God I suck. 2006-10-29 - quick note about River 2006-10-29 - super epiphany 2006-10-28 - My life as it is usually lived. 2006-10-27 - Perpetually suspended between this and that. 2006-10-26 - Not so confused any longer-- I AM STRONG. 2006-10-26 - another day another dollar 2006-10-25 - All of my worries have melted like lemondrops 2006-10-24 - gutter talk 2006-10-23 - I'm on holiday from running this week and am tortured by the guilty feelings. 2006-10-22 - It was actually snowing today--big, wet, sloppy flakes. Eek--not before Hallowe'en! 2006-10-21 - it's sort of great to have a semi-OC friend who comes to visit-- I love C. 2006-10-19 - I'm in demand, baby 2006-10-18 - When I left work I could only be bothered to change into my bike tights and not out of my dress shirt and fitted cardigan. As a result I look like a penguin. 2006-10-17 - the scientist is tempting me with poetry, believe it or not 2006-10-16 - pics and friends 2006-10-15 - running under Blackfriars Bridge, my huge baggage with respect to romance, and how I discovered my fiance was an ass. 2006-10-14 - Warning: I'm feeling good. 2006-10-13 - in which I talk about nothing, again 2006-10-12 - ho hum 2006-10-10 - on the run again 2006-10-06 - the nighttime of my youth 2006-09-30 - I paddled at sunset amongst lily pads of silver that were patterned like strewn petals. 2006-09-27 - I won't say that I am going to be jobless in January... 2006-09-25 - Boring, drooling entry about how lovely it is to be anti-social. 2006-09-24 - I need a dog. A dog would have refused to run any further. I knew a dog once who would only run half way up the hill when we ran hill repeats, knowing that we would be coming back down. The things you can learn from a dog. :) 2006-09-23 - Time to obsessively throw myself into becoming an origami expert, or maybe learning Chinese gardening (I love the miniature trees that they groom...I should post some pictures from a trip to the Botanic Garden last year.) 2006-09-20 - I am good...so good. But he was better. 2006-09-19 - I am SCREWED...honestly screwed. Why can't a 'normal' man under normal circumstances favour me? Why do creepy men have to crawl out of the wordwork to perpetually ruin my feelings about sex? 2006-09-17 - Sighs all around. Please let me not get sick after the sleeplessness of the last week 2006-09-10 - I'm trying not to think of death. 2006-09-09 - quick notes on the job and everything 2006-09-05 - one day of freedom remaining. 2006-09-05 - My first gloomy sigh in the big O 2006-09-04 - Will I ever bother to date again? 2006-09-04 - as I clinically dissect the process of choosing a relationship, like choosing a shirt colour for the first day of work (laboriously, and still undecided) 2006-09-02 - super-shitheadedness 101 2006-08-31 - pre-Ottawa chit chat 2006-08-27 - update on my thrilling existence 2006-08-25 - a quick evening hello and adieu 2006-08-24 - please excuse the grogginess of this note! 2006-08-22 - things to remember 2006-08-20 - a very slow Sunday on the ranch 2006-08-19 - I'm not really very grumpy; how can one be grumpy in the beautiful woods? 2006-08-14 - I must I must I must improve my housekeeping; a clean apartment is so lovely. 2006-08-10 - thank you for friendship 2006-08-08 - baking and phone calls from Europe are among my favourite things 2006-08-08 - alas and alack 2006-08-06 - pathological Sunday 2006-08-05 - sweet bitters 2006-08-04 - yikes, mon erreur 2006-08-03 - I return. I remain a bore. :) 2006-07-13 - min-makeover gone awry 2006-07-12 - Liking someone is really, really not a good idea 2006-07-08 - a pointless crush makes me a dull and uninteresting person 2006-07-06 - My eyes are heavy with excitement. 2006-07-04 - dating maniac WHAT? 2006-07-03 - hot hot hot here in humidex central 2006-07-01 - I hope the little kitten is now getting well. 2006-07-01 - I hope the little kitten is now getting well. 2006-06-29 - let's go a hunting 2006-06-28 - pondering dating crap 2006-06-27 - getting myself into trouble with men 2006-06-27 - Apparently, since I had a young mother, I may live to be 100! Yippee?? 2006-06-25 - Bad, bad move. Back to square one. 2006-06-25 - the geek matching game 2006-06-24 - Saturday staring at a monitor 2006-06-23 - I'm being lured in by undoubtedly sneaky strangers on the Internet 2006-06-22 - Where do I go from here? A positively mournful entry of purplish prose. 2006-06-21 - My dinner is ready so this is going to be a rushed and haphazard entry 2006-06-20 - what a tumbling life I lead 2006-06-18 - in a haze and smog-filled 40 degree southern Ontario kitchen 2006-06-17 - uneventful trip; chocolate orange is still her favourite flavour 2006-06-16 - dressing options 2006-06-15 - I'm radioactive. More radioactive than usual. And I have a few things to say about Vancouver. 2006-06-15 - I'm radioactive. More radioactive than usual. 2006-06-14 - Chocolate is taking over my life. 2006-06-14 - A pint after school was not a good idea. 2006-06-11 - Sunday afternoon 2006-06-10 - liver damage 2006-06-09 - pure cheese and a bit of Canuck-i-ness 2006-06-07 - The sky is an expanse of grey velvet and in the foreground are Gainsborough trees. 2006-06-07 - headache thee art mine 2006-06-04 - Bulgur should be a national food. Heck, it should be an entire food group. 2006-06-02 - in the pool with the speedmeisters. go grannies! 2006-06-01 - The freshly weed-whacked garden contradictorily smells good. 2006-05-31 - the smell of rain is always sweet 2006-05-31 - It's late and I'm dehydrated but too lazy to get up to get a drink of water. Now that is lazy. But I'm not too lazy to think about cutting off my hair. Why are Internet hair sites all populated by scary 90s hair mag images? 2006-05-30 - I am a weed! I am definitely a weed! 2006-05-28 - A really long, dry entry about hot water and friendship issues 2006-05-26 - sports doc god 2006-05-25 - A blissful day off 2006-05-25 - in the pink. doing laundry. spilling coffee on myself (and I am wearing such a nice pink skirt, too) 2006-05-24 - Sunset on a pleasant Wednesday 2006-05-24 - I hope that I don't jinx this. 2006-05-23 - Hungry...and I do mean that to be a double entendre 2006-05-22 - quickie 2006-05-21 - Sunday trivialities 2006-05-20 - only a few late-night sighs. 2006-05-20 - pink tulips are still one of my favourites. I also need to buy an interesting bud vase at the florist's. I think a friend of mine is mad at me because I said that the last thing I need to replace my running with is a relationship 2006-05-17 - it can always get worse. 2006-05-16 - I embarass myself. But that is what beer is for. 2006-05-14 - This is maudlin. I apologize. 2006-05-13 - still living :) 2006-05-12 - milky, potato-y goodness 2006-05-11 - privacy and other weak musings 2006-05-10 - Oh how I love the return of summer and pouffy skirts 2006-05-09 - tired, sore, confused, angry 2006-05-08 - flat out thrilled 2006-04-27 - on the upswing 2006-04-26 - I'm beginning to argue regularly with my mother; I should set out for Montreal in the next couple of days 2006-04-24 - walk and then run 2006-04-24 - en bref 2006-04-23 - Dogs really are a great deal of work. I must be the laziest person alive, since I love dogs and my dog-sitting weekend is causing me to question whether I will ever be willing to care for anyone but myself :) 2006-04-21 - no temperence for the weekend; not a good holiday-maker 2006-04-19 - bananas and more brownies (rocky road, this time); the beginning of mosquito season 2006-04-18 - the fawns are exactly the same colour as the dead leaves that carpet the forest floor 2006-04-12 - Oh what a temperate old lady I am becoming! 2006-04-11 - ssss 2006-04-09 - musing on privilege 2006-04-09 - it's 1 a.m. and I hate my computer 2006-04-07 - stupid stupid me feeling sorry for my overpriveleged self 2006-04-06 - And on the way home from school my pedal fell off....about a block from my bike repair shop. What does that say about my luck? 2006-04-05 - strawberries 2006-04-02 - I don't even have time for a shower 2006-04-01 - oh the circles I run 2006-04-01 - oh tthe circles I run 2006-03-31 - chocoholosize 2006-03-28 - nonsense, avoidance 2006-03-28 - I am such a fool. Up in the middle of the night and not getting any pleasure from it. 2006-03-26 - quick off the mark 2006-03-25 - tyranny of virtue and pretension 2006-03-25 - revised spring racing plans 2006-03-24 - Finally, shopping! 2006-03-23 - I have to write another flipping paper tonight, and so I thought I'd sit down and write a bit about the departure of romantic ideals and the loss of the ability to lose sexual inhibitions. 2006-03-22 - The only attractive therapy at the moment is shopping 2006-03-22 - blather blather 2006-03-21 - just the random, repetitive \"what am I going to be when I grow up?\" thoughts that I have regularly 2006-03-20 - pics 2006-03-20 - I just finished and printed my last paper for the weekend. 2006-03-19 - I am getting so fit I am almost surprised myself by the rebound. But I am also tired. Deathly tired. 2006-03-18 - Take away some of the doors, please! 2006-03-18 - Take away some of the doors, please! 2006-03-17 - It's Friday night. I'm tired, still full, and wondering how to stop thinking like I'm old. And I must run 50k this weekend. 2006-03-16 - bloody stupid paper that I should have written on Tuesday. 2006-03-15 - the wrinkled net generation 2006-03-14 - ouch! 2006-03-13 - my head hurts TERRIBLY 2006-03-12 - nothing of importance, Sunday evening 2006-03-12 - Sunday morning. So good to be me. 2006-03-11 - let her have mints 2006-03-09 - splits and apple crisp 2006-03-07 - cheese, cheese 2006-03-06 - Osc@rs; and somebody just put me out of my misery, for I am useless at making decisions. 2006-03-05 - not much going on here, AGAIN 2006-03-04 - rich & meaty...utter triviality 2006-03-03 - It's the middle of the night and I'm making pasta 2006-03-01 - somebody prod me awake, please 2006-02-27 - May glitch 2006-02-27 - pride 2006-02-26 - Sunday night debrief 2006-02-24 - chevre!! and rocks!! big rocks! and an asshole Prime Minister! 2006-02-23 - crunch crunch 2006-02-22 - cracks are what let the light in- thank you, Leonard 2006-02-21 - ugh ugh ugh. I want to pumice more than my skin 2006-02-20 - Monday rush hour 2006-02-19 - Sunday afternoon quickie (read: procrastination) 2006-02-19 - cut short 2006-02-18 - why buy Canadian? 2006-02-17 - fagged and throat-sore 2006-02-17 - crisis 2006-02-16 - the wrong sort of dinner 2006-02-15 - they came in a heart-shaped box, with a red raffia tie; and on the subject of rivalry 2006-02-14 - oh my poetic soul (well, not so much) 2006-02-13 - odd as a three dollar bill 2006-02-12 - back later 2006-02-11 - nothing much AT all (except more cheese) 2006-02-11 - eyes open morning 2006-02-10 - cheese, cheese, and more cheese please 2006-02-09 - I feel like a six-p@ck, a pizza, and a piece of chocolate cake 2006-02-08 - separating the wheat from the chaff 2006-02-07 - overdosed on red cinnamon hearts 2006-02-06 - Naps don't necessarily smooth the bumps 2006-02-06 - Monday occlusion 2006-02-05 - too old for the drink 2006-02-04 - barking in a Saturday morning. 2006-02-03 - brief brief 2006-02-02 - nothing important 2006-02-01 - obliviousness 2006-01-31 - I blame it on the Greek flatbread... 2006-01-29 - self-deception 2006-01-28 - embarrassment 2006-01-28 - grim Saturday; I would vomit up my chocolate 2006-01-28 - - 2006-01-27 - s-m@ 2006-01-26 - in the pink 2006-01-25 - will the snow remember me? 2006-01-24 - angst 2006-01-23 - where are the female Parliamentarians? 2006-01-22 - vanity 2006-01-21 - sniffles 2006-01-20 - peanut butter 2006-01-18 - a very very bad day 2006-01-17 - long live the margins 2006-01-16 - the implosion of tolerance 2006-01-15 - brakes 2006-01-14 - sensibility 2006-01-13 - dictum 2006-01-09 - white and....orange 2006-01-08 - could my monthly cycle be contributing to my snarkiness? 2006-01-07 - brush 2006-01-06 - reasonably good day, although half of it was spent hugging the porcelain 2006-01-05 - despair despair despair 2006-01-04 - barking mad 2006-01-03 - I swear, I want to be positive. 2006-01-03 - late late late 2006-01-02 - guilt-free 2006 2005-12-29 - the long fingers of guilt 2005-12-28 - inertia 2005-12-27 - coffee and oatmeal 2005-12-26 - quickie 2005-12-23 - blank slate 2005-12-23 - sleeping the days away 2005-12-22 - concentric circles of hurt 2005-12-21 - in the woods, over the pond, beneath the changeable sky, in the sunset of my petulant childhood 2005-12-20 - restless 2005-12-19 - sshhh 2005-12-18 - all I do is sleep 2005-12-16 - fall down eight times, get up nine times 2005-12-10 - two boxes of cookies and no dinner really is just wrong 2005-12-08 - what the devil are pumpkin squares? 2005-12-06 - fat ass 2005-12-06 - roughing it in the bush 2005-12-05 - plus ca change 2005-12-02 - bref 2005-12-01 - S behaving badly 2005-11-27 - calm returns...let it last! 2005-11-24 - my own damn fault 2005-11-22 - whack job 2005-11-20 - I deserve this one. 2005-11-19 - it really does have no mistakes in it yet 2005-11-18 - dumb move 2005-11-18 - I am so disappointed in myself. 2005-11-17 - fuggledy buck - how things turn on a dime-my dime 2005-11-15 - the magazines do tell a tale of a bill foiled 2005-11-13 - ravenous 2005-11-12 - awaken 2005-11-11 - whither weather 2005-11-08 - retract 2005-11-07 - retreat 2005-11-05 - laundry day 2005-11-03 - RUSH 2005-11-01 - no loss is worth this; I know how long the sinking takes 2005-10-30 - the world is not my oyster 2005-10-29 - utter gloom 2005-10-29 - not a genius thing to do 2005-10-28 - ACK 2005-10-27 - why? 2005-10-25 - no news 2005-10-25 - fatigue 2005-10-24 - - 2005-10-20 - yo-yo 2005-10-17 - dawdle dee 2005-10-17 - blowhard 2005-10-16 - Titles required 2005-10-14 - - 2005-10-12 - - 2005-10-03 - sighs 2005-10-03 - s 2005-10-01 - y 2005-10-01 - x 2005-09-30 - eeeee 2005-09-30 - o 2005-09-29 - - 2005-09-27 - x 2005-09-26 - grrrr 2005-09-25 - x 2005-09-24 - r 2005-09-17 - x 2005-09-15 - w 2005-09-11 - v 2005-09-10 - x 2005-09-05 - C 2005-09-03 - x 2005-08-17 - m 2005-07-26 - - 2005-07-21 - b 2005-07-20 - x 2005-07-18 - x 2005-07-16 - lazy 2005-07-13 - - 2005-07-12 - n 2005-07-12 - - 2005-06-28 - brief 2005-06-26 - UGH 2005-06-26 - sigh 2005-06-25 - weirdness 2005-06-24 - clean slate 2005-06-23 - dalliance 2005-06-22 - my love is like a red red rose 2005-06-21 - brown stripes 2005-06-19 - over-caffeinated 2005-06-18 - ugly 2005-06-18 - - 2005-06-17 - fried 2005-06-16 - potatoes 2005-06-16 - chocolate celery 2005-06-15 - I must start using titles again. 2005-06-14 - - 2005-06-14 - - 2005-06-13 - - 2005-06-11 - - 2005-06-09 - - 2005-06-07 - - 2005-06-04 - - 2005-06-01 - mixed 2005-05-31 - - 2005-05-22 - - 2005-05-14 - eeeeeeee 2005-05-07 - omg 2005-05-06 - YIKES 2005-04-25 - quicksilver 2005-04-23 - waste of resources 2005-04-22 - open window and an open book 2005-04-21 - ack 2005-04-19 - heaaaaaaaaadache 2005-04-17 - spark of life 2005-04-15 - I don't know 2005-04-14 - um 2005-04-14 - um 2005-04-12 - speed 2005-04-10 - harumph 2005-04-09 - auricula 2005-04-03 - ucluelet 2005-03-14 - knocks 2005-03-12 - time flies 2005-03-11 - uber headache 2005-03-08 - usque ad mare 2005-03-07 - ad infinitum 2005-03-06 - part deux, deux 2005-03-06 - pretty, pretty golden streaks outside my window 2005-03-05 - incumbency 2005-03-04 - part deux 2005-03-04 - back to basics 2005-03-03 - ffff 2005-03-01 - spin spin spin, please breathe 2005-02-28 - cough cough 2005-02-26 - plus ca change 2005-02-17 - Thursday is my last day in town 2005-02-15 - buttercups 2005-02-14 - wash your mouth out with soap 2005-02-14 - bright lights 2005-02-13 - sunday solstice 2005-02-12 - on my way to the skating pond.. 2005-02-12 - decisions, decis 2005-02-11 - shilly 2005-02-08 - buttery bits of hope tell a little story 2005-02-04 - today's a day like any other 2005-02-01 - icing 2005-01-24 - not in the mood 2005-01-22 - freedom 2005-01-21 - snotty 200 |